Marks left on a goodbye letter

I am obsessed,
but not really.
I am just questioning you.
That might be bad,
but I think
I could be the one
to find real answers
not picked out of shame.
I am sorry,
that I am a cunt.
I had a lot built up.
We were running circles.
Maybe that is why I am a romantic.
I see,
but choose no to.
It is my own fault
I wish you the best.
I am serious.
I know you think
the worst of me
even without me
I know there is no way
you lose your laughter.